I almost asked for help and then heard my own pride answer first

Dear Delyara, It’s strange how quickly pride can dress itself as practicality. I almost said I needed help. Then, almost instantly, I started telling myself it wasn’t necessary, it would be easier to do it myself, it was too small to mention, too late to ask, too complicated to explain, too unimpressive to deserve another person’s energy. Maybe some of that was true. Maybe some of it was pride protecting me from the vulnerability of need. Tonight I couldn’t fully tell the difference. So I stayed quiet. Again.