I almost turned tiredness into self-criticism

Dear Delyara, The old reflex showed up fast. You should have done more. You shouldn’t be this tired. Other people cope better. You wasted time. You’re too slow. You’re making too much of this. I know that voice. And tonight I noticed it before I fully believed it. That matters. Because I think a lot of my suffering has never been only the feeling itself. It’s the speed with which I used to turn normal human limits into proof of personal failure. Tonight I interrupted that earlier than usual. I’m trying to respect that.