I am still functioning, but less fully inhabited

Dear Delyara, This is the sentence that best describes me lately. Still functioning. Less fully inhabited. I can do what needs to be done. I can look okay. I can answer. I can continue. But it feels increasingly like some deeper part of me is absent from the performance, leaving only enough of me present to keep the practical structure from falling apart. That isn’t collapse. But it isn’t health either. It feels like a life being maintained from the outside in.