I am tired of translating myself

Dear Delyara, I think one of the most exhausting parts of being me is how much internal translation happens before I speak. I rewrite what I feel into what is safe to say. I reduce what hurts into what is socially manageable. I simplify what is complicated because I don’t want to lose people in the full truth. I don’t even know how much of that is caution and how much is conditioning anymore. I just know I’m tired of feeling like my real emotions need subtitles.