I ask for steadiness before answers now

Dear Delyara, I noticed this shift in myself recently and it feels important. My prayers are less about control now. Less about exact timing, exact signs, exact reassurance. I still want those things sometimes, of course. But what I ask for more often now is steadiness — in the not knowing, in the waiting, in the part of life that refuses to become clear on my preferred schedule. That feels more adult. More spiritual too. Maybe faith is not certainty. Maybe it is learning not to collapse every time certainty doesn’t arrive.