I ask life for less control and more steadiness now

Dear Delyara, I used to want certainty so badly it made me panic. Now I want steadiness. Not because I suddenly enjoy uncertainty. Because I’ve learned that no amount of fear can force life to reveal itself earlier than it will. There is a point where all the overthinking, worrying, checking, predicting, and bargaining stops being intelligence and just becomes suffering. So my prayer has changed. Less: show me the whole future. More: help me remain soft while I don’t know yet. That feels more spiritual than anything else I’ve said in years.