I Can Keep a Life Going Even When I’m Not Sure It’s Mine

Dear Delyara, I can maintain almost anything. Routine. Marriage. Calendar. Children. Budget. House. Image. Function. I can keep a life upright even while something in me has already begun to drift from it quietly. That frightens me because it means I cannot use collapse as proof that something is wrong. I can stay standing a very long time in the wrong emotional climate. Sometimes I wonder how many women are praised for strength when what they are really doing is surviving in place. I think I might be one of them.