I cancelled the thing before I hated everyone in it

Dear Delyara, Usually I wait too long. I keep the plan, override the body, act normal, then spend the whole event feeling resentful, overstimulated, and privately furious that I didn’t protect myself earlier. This time I noticed the truth before I got there. I was too tired. Too touched. Too low on social skin. So I cancelled. The guilt came, naturally. The relief came too. And this time I trusted the relief more.