I caught the old reflex before it became behavior

Dear Delyara, I think that is how change really happens. The reflex still appeared — be smaller, smoother, easier, more immediately self-erasing. But this time I noticed it while it was still forming instead of only after it had already run the whole interaction. That noticing gave me a choice. And the choice gave me more self-respect afterward. It was small from the outside. It wasn’t small from the inside.