I did not want to be emotionally efficient

Dear Delyara, Sometimes I think the world wants feelings handled too quickly. Be upset, but make it clean. Need support, but know exactly what you need. Have a hard day, but return to being easy by tomorrow. Be human, but not inconveniently so. Tonight I don’t want to be emotionally efficient. I don’t want to package the feeling properly or move through it on schedule or turn it into a lesson before it has fully lived in me. I just want room. That feels harder to come by than it should.