I didn’t believe the worst thought immediately

Dear Delyara, A hard thought came into my mind today, and I didn’t treat it like truth right away. That may sound like nothing to someone else. To me, it felt like proof of healing. There was a time when every harsh thought in my head became law. If I felt ashamed, I called myself shameful. If I felt anxious, I called myself weak. If I felt low, I assumed it meant something final about my life. Now, sometimes, there is a pause. A thought. Then space. Then choice. That space has changed more than anyone around me knows.