I do not know how to remain light while outcomes are still open

Dear Delyara, Open outcomes make me heavy. Not curious. Not spacious. Heavy. I rehearse. Predict. Guard. Try to reduce surprise by occupying too many futures too early. The body remains half-ready, as if uncertainty is not part of life but a problem I should have emotionally solved already. I wish “we’ll see” felt more like trust and less like suspended danger. It still doesn’t.