I don’t feel rested even when I stop moving

Dear Delyara, Stress follows me into stillness. That’s how I know it has gone too deep. I can sit down, technically rest, and still feel as if my entire system is half-standing, waiting for the next thing. The body doesn’t trust the pause. The mind doesn’t trust the silence. Even rest feels supervised. I don’t remember the last time I relaxed without first proving to myself that I deserved it.