I don’t know how to rest in maybe

Dear Delyara, That’s the whole problem. Maybe does not feel open to me. It feels active. A maybe-answer, maybe-outcome, maybe-shift, maybe-loss, maybe-opportunity — all of it turns my mind into motion. I prepare, predict, guard, imagine, rehearse, negotiate with futures that have not even become real. I know uncertainty is part of being alive. My body keeps treating it like unfinished danger. I wish “we’ll see” felt lighter. It still doesn’t.