I ended the night with a little mercy

Dear Delyara, I am not ending this day triumphant. Just gentler. I ate properly. Turned the lights down earlier. Ignored two unnecessary messages. Didn’t interrogate my mood. Didn’t punish myself for not being brighter. Didn’t make tonight carry a lesson it wasn’t ready to teach. Some days mercy is the best thing I can offer myself. Tonight it will have to be enough.