I felt more exposed than social

Dear Delyara, That was the odd feeling today. I was around people, yes. Talking, answering, doing ordinary life. But the sensation underneath it all wasn’t exactly social. It was exposure. Too much visibility, too little inner privacy, too much emotional surface available to the world while the deeper part of me wanted a room with a door. I think that’s one of the reasons certain days tire me so much. Not because anything big happens. Because I spend too long being emotionally perceptible when I don’t feel robust enough for it. By evening, I wanted invisibility more than connection.