I felt tired in the part of me that usually stays reliable

Dear Delyara, That scared me a little. Not physical tiredness exactly. Something deeper. The part of me that usually holds steady, keeps moving, keeps answering, keeps functioning without too much fuss — even that part felt worn out today. It’s one thing to be emotionally tired. It’s another to feel tired in the very machinery of how you usually cope. I think that’s why the day felt heavier than it looked. Because even my reliable self felt less available. Tonight I don’t want to be strong. I want to be allowed not to be.