I felt too awake inside my own mind

Dear Delyara, My body was tired. My mind was not. That’s one of the most difficult combinations for me. The physical heaviness of needing sleep with the mental brightness of a mind that refuses to let the day end cleanly. Thoughts, memories, unfinished loops, emotional review, small future fears, practical rehearsals — all of it continuing long after the room has gone quiet. I lay there feeling too conscious of myself. I think some nights insomnia is not sleeplessness. It is over-presence. Tonight felt like that.