I had a good moment and immediately tried to protect it

Dear Delyara, A nice feeling passed through me today and I reacted like someone who didn’t fully trust it. I tightened. Monitored. Wondered how long it would last. Waited for interruption. Prepared for the drop. It’s strange how quickly the mind can become suspicious of relief when stress has trained it long enough. Still, for a few minutes, I did feel good. That is worth writing down. Even if I’m not yet great at simply receiving it. Maybe part of healing is learning not to treat peace like a trick.