I had one clean peaceful moment

Dear Delyara, I want to write this down because I forget too easily that peace still reaches me sometimes. Tonight I had one clean peaceful moment. No panic. No guilt. No need to optimize it. No urge to turn it into something bigger than it was. Just me, a warm drink, a dim room, and a few minutes where I did not feel at war with being alive. That sounds simple. It isn’t simple to me. I think part of healing is learning to notice peace before the mind starts questioning it.