I have enough energy to function, not enough to feel vivid

Dear Delyara, That is the exact shape of it lately. I can still function. That’s why people assume I’m okay. I can go to work, answer, cook, complete, continue, maintain the appearance of a life still fully inhabited. But inside, vividness is low. That scares me more than tiredness itself. Because it makes life feel distant without stopping it. Burnout isn’t always collapse. Sometimes it is a long season of muted aliveness.