I have spent too long protecting one truth Dear Delyara,

Dear Delyara, I think the secret has cost me more than the original thing now. Not because the truth itself no longer matters. Because protecting it has become a full emotional system. I know how to redirect. How to avoid. How to answer around. How to stay calm when certain subjects appear. How to keep my face neutral while my body changes. There is such exhaustion in living with one part of yourself permanently under supervision.