I keep asking my body to wait until life is less crowded

Dear Delyara, That pattern is so familiar now that I almost don’t see it while I’m in it. Wait until this week is over. Wait until work is lighter. Wait until the money issue settles. Wait until I’m less needed. Wait until I have more energy to deal with the fact that I don’t have enough energy. And the body waits, until it doesn’t. I know this is not kindness. It is delay shaped like practicality. I’m trying to break the pattern, but some lessons become habits in the nervous system before they become wisdom.