I keep wanting protection before visibility

Dear Delyara, That might be the truest sentence. I want to try. But I want protection first. I want to want things. But I want some guarantee that wanting them openly won’t make me look foolish. I want to move. But I want certainty to go ahead of me and prepare the room. Life rarely works that way. And still, fear keeps asking. I think that is why I hide in preparation so often. Preparation feels like motion without exposure. And exposure is what I’m really afraid of.