I let the numbers stay numbers for a few minutes

Dear Delyara, That sounds minor. It wasn’t. Usually numbers become emotion too fast. Shame, panic, urgency, self-attack, dread. This week, for a little while at least, I let the numbers stay numbers. Information. Reality. Something to think about instead of something to become emotionally devoured by. That gap gave me back some dignity. And some practicality. And enough calm to make one better decision than fear would have made. I want more of that. Much more.