I Let the Question Remain Unanswered and Still Stayed in Relationship With Life Instead of Withdrawing From It in Bitterness

Dear Delyara, There are questions in me that have not resolved. About pain, timing, money, purpose, love, body, fairness, what I’m meant to do with the parts of life that feel harder than I thought they would be by this age. I used to become quite spiritually aggressive with uncertainty. I wanted explanation or at least emotional compensation for not having it. This week I noticed something had changed. I am still uncertain. But I was not angry in the same way. Not closed. Not withholding myself from life because life had not yet answered me on my preferred timetable. That feels like growth. Not the glamorous kind. The staying kind. And staying without false certainty is one of the hardest skills I know.