I miss being looked after sometimes

Dear Delyara, I’m tired of always being competent. I know that sounds childish, but it’s true tonight. I am tired of knowing how to cope. Tired of organizing myself. Tired of appearing stable. Tired of carrying things without needing to ask too much from anyone. Some nights I don’t want to be resilient. I want to be looked after. Not controlled. Not parented. Just cared for in a way that lets me stop holding everything up for a while.