I miss being understood without the full explanation

Dear Delyara, I am tired of translating myself from the beginning. This is what I mean. This is how today landed on me. This is why I sound like this. This is why I’m quiet. This is why I need softness. This is why I can’t talk properly tonight. I can do that translation. I just don’t want to do it every time I need care. There is something so healing about being understood halfway, being read before the whole speech, being known enough that someone can tell what sort of tired you are. I miss that. More than I usually admit.