I missed being easier to reach from the inside

Dear Delyara, That’s the phrase that came to me today. I missed being easier to reach from the inside. There are days when I can feel that I’m partially there but not fully available to myself. I answer people, do what needs to be done, keep the surface working — but some deeper part of me remains delayed, quieter, not fully in the room yet. I think that’s why some evenings feel so strange. The body is present, the personality is present, but the self is lagging behind. That was today. I hope tomorrow I arrive sooner.