I missed someone I should probably be over

Dear Delyara, I missed someone tonight that I should probably be over by now. Not because I think they were right for me. Not because I forgot what hurt. Just because some people stay tied to a version of you that still hurts to lose. I think that’s what I actually miss sometimes — not them, but who I was while hoping they would love me properly. That feels more embarrassing to admit than missing the person. But maybe it’s more honest.