I nearly cried because the tap water was very cold

Dear Delyara, I put my hands under the cold water and something in my system reacted with more feeling than the moment seemed to deserve. I think that’s how I knew how close to the edge of my own tenderness I was tonight. Not falling apart. Just thin enough that a small physical sensation could suddenly feel like too much reality at once. I didn’t cry. But the body came near. Sometimes that nearness says more than the tears would.