I nearly reached out and then chose the page instead

Dear Delyara, I almost messaged someone tonight. Then I didn’t. Not because they would have been unkind. Because I did not have the energy to translate myself properly. I could already feel how the truth would need trimming, how the feeling would become smaller in language, how I would end up saying “just tired” when what I meant was something harder to hold. So I came here instead. There is relief in speaking somewhere that doesn’t interrupt, interpret too quickly, or ask me to make my emotions easier to carry. Tonight I needed that more than advice.