I nearly texted the wrong person

Dear Delyara, I nearly texted someone tonight just because I felt lonely. Not because I miss them in a healthy way. Not because I think going back would be good for me. Just because loneliness makes familiarity look softer than it really is. I didn’t send anything. Still, I sat there with my phone in my hand for several minutes, feeling that old pull between what hurts and what is known. Sometimes growth is not a breakthrough. Sometimes it is just one message not sent.