I nearly told the truth and then chose the easier answer

Dear Delyara, Someone gave me a real opening today. The kind of moment where I could have answered honestly if I’d had just a little more courage, or a little less fear of becoming difficult, emotional, or too much. And I didn’t take it. I gave the easy answer. The manageable one. The socially tidy version. Then spent the next hour wishing I had said the true thing instead. I don’t know when honesty became something I have to fight for this hard. But some days I am very tired of living in edited form.