I no longer need the old feeling to vanish to know I’ve changed

Dear Delyara, That realization has given me so much relief. The old feeling still appears sometimes. But it no longer owns me in the same way. It doesn’t instantly become the whole environment. It doesn’t necessarily decide the rest of the day. It doesn’t get to speak with the same authority it once had. That is healing to me now. Not disappearance. Changed proportion. Changed power. The feeling can still be there. I am still different. That matters.