I no longer need to be untouched by it to trust that I’m better

Dear Delyara, There are still certain things that hurt. That is no longer proof to me that I haven’t healed. I used to think the goal was total immunity. No reaction. No ache. No old weather. Now I understand healing more in terms of scale and ownership. The past can still touch me without owning me. A memory can still sting without becoming my whole emotional climate. That shift has given me more peace than the fantasy of total detachment ever did. I don’t need to be untouched. I need to be less ruled. That is happening.