I noticed how careful I’ve become

Dear Delyara, I listened to myself talking today and realized how careful I sound now. Careful with truth. Careful with tone. Careful with how much of me I reveal at once. Careful not to sound too needy, too intense, too disappointed, too emotional, too much. I don’t know exactly when I became this edited. Maybe gradually. Maybe through enough small hurts that taught me unfiltered honesty could be costly. I just miss the version of me who spoke more freely.