I stayed loyal to the memory longer than to my own clarity

Dear Delyara, I think that’s what made the ending take so long. I wasn’t only loving the person in front of me. I was staying loyal to the shape of what we had once been. Memory kept arguing on their behalf. History kept softening what the present was trying to show me. By the time I accepted the loneliness inside the friendship, I was already exhausted from defending it against reality. That realization still hurts.