I still feel guilty when I choose myself

Dear Delyara, Even now, with everything I know intellectually, guilt still arrives very quickly when I choose myself. When I cancel. When I rest. When I say no. When I ask for more. When I stop performing ease. When I protect my energy before it becomes resentment. I know boundaries are healthy. I know that. But some parts of me still experience self-protection as betrayal. That is a hard thing to unlearn.