I still know how to move forward without feeling pulled forward

Dear Delyara, That’s the uncomfortable truth. I can continue without desire for a long time. Responsibility, structure, fear, pride, habit — all of those can keep a life moving. What they cannot fully replace is the internal pull that once made movement feel alive. I think I am mourning that pull in certain parts of my life. Not because I have none left. Because it no longer lives everywhere it used to. That matters more than I can easily explain.