I still look more available than I really am

Dear Delyara, That is one of the reasons burnout can hide inside me for so long. I can answer. Show up. Sound coherent. Complete enough. Remain kind enough. So people assume I’m more available than I am. Sometimes I assume it too. But under the functioning there is a kind of absence growing — less inward room, less spark, less genuine participation in the day. I don’t want to wait until all of that becomes dramatic before I let it count as depletion. It already counts.