I thought about the life I didn’t live

Dear Delyara, I had one of those evenings where I thought too much about alternate lives. Who I might have been if I had chosen differently. Who I might have become if I had left earlier. What kind of relationship I’d have with myself if fear had not made so many decisions when I was younger. What would have unfolded if I had trusted my own instincts more. I know this line of thinking is dangerous if I stay there too long. Still, I think everyone has evenings where the unlived life sits beside the lived one for a while. Tonight is one of mine.