I want an answer more than I want a good outcome sometimes

Dear Delyara, That sounds bleak, but it feels true some days. Uncertainty wears me down in a very specific way. It keeps my body half-ready, my thoughts repetitive, my future crowded with imagined versions. There are moments when I think I would almost rather hear a difficult truth than continue living in maybe. At least truth gives shape. Maybe gives too much space. I don’t know how other people sit so comfortably inside what has not yet been decided. My body treats it like unfinished danger.