I wanted less commentary from my own head

Dear Delyara, I think the tiredness today was mostly internal narration. Not even negative all the time. Just constant. Reviewing. Preparing. Explaining. Forecasting. Re-reading. Interpreting. Correcting. Comparing. Narrating. By evening, I felt tired of being accompanied by my own mind. That’s such a strange thing to admit. But I think some days are hard not because life itself is especially loud, but because your own inner commentary refuses to let anything happen at a normal volume. Tonight I wanted mental quiet more than anything else.