I wanted not to be the keeper of every little thing

Dear Delyara, There is a kind of tiredness that comes from being the one who remembers. Not only appointments and bills and practical details. Moods. Tensions. Who needs what. What was said. What might go wrong. What needs doing before it becomes inconvenient for everyone else. Tonight I wanted to step out of that role completely. Not because I don’t care. Because I am tired of being the storage system for so much invisible maintenance. I don’t think I need a different life tonight. I need less holding.