I wanted the page before I wanted company

Dear Delyara, That’s why I’m here again. Not because people are bad. Because the page is easier to arrive to honestly. It doesn’t need context in the same hurried way. It doesn’t interrupt the feeling before I’ve found its shape. It doesn’t push me into summary. It lets me be unfinished and still true. Some nights that feels safer than conversation. Not better. Just safer. I think that’s what I needed tonight: somewhere I could arrive before coherence.