I wanted to be emotionally unobserved

Dear Delyara, This is hard to explain, but today I wanted to move through the world without anyone emotionally registering me. No one asking if I’m okay. No one noticing I’m quiet. No one reading too much into my mood. No one requiring a version of me. I think I was tired of being perceivable. There are days when even care can feel like pressure if your system is full enough. Today was one of those days. I didn’t want attention. I wanted neutrality. I hope that doesn’t make me cold. I think it just means I’m overstretched.