I wanted to be known without having to perform depth

Dear Delyara, Some forms of loneliness come from never getting past the surface. Others come from having to perform depth too quickly just to feel met. I wanted neither. I wanted ordinary knowing. The kind where someone already understands enough of your emotional grammar that you don’t need a dramatic scene to be received accurately. The kind where your smaller truths don’t have to fight so hard for room. I think that’s what I miss most in certain seasons of life. Not intensity. Familiarity with depth.