I wanted to cancel everything and disappear for a day

Dear Delyara, Today felt like too much before it was even properly anything. Messages. Work. Noise. Three small decisions I didn’t want to make. A conversation I knew was coming. The pressure of needing to seem emotionally normal. Nothing huge happened, and still I spent half the day fantasizing about cancelling everything and disappearing somewhere no one could reach me for twenty-four hours. Not because I want a new life. Because I need one day where my nervous system is not on call. Sometimes I think exhaustion is less about workload and more about the feeling that your life has become too reachable.