I was more emotionally full than socially tired

Dear Delyara, That’s the distinction tonight. It wasn’t exactly that I was tired of people. I was full. Full of tone. Full of context. Full of little emotional adjustments. Full of things I noticed that never became full conversations. Full of what I did not say. Full of what I did say in smaller form than I meant. By evening, there was no clean room left in me. Only crowded ones. I think that’s what I need to recover from most — not socializing itself, but the emotional fullness socializing leaves behind.